Hesitant

Feels like ages
the wait here
at the door ,
at the entrance to
innumerable labyrinths .
each fading gracefully
into another ,
a grandeur of illusions
sought after
with a churning deep inside
to be lost
truly lost ,
in it's absolutely defiant ,
darkly radiant
glow .
Hold on ,
I am still hesitant ,
I am still turbulent
in the indecision ,
immersed deeply
in my love
for the concept of it
to step forward
into it .

Akash